i’m lonely, but that’s okay
This is where the mother wants to dominate and control every aspect of her daughter’s life. She’s always giving her opinion, making demands, and requiring her daughter to follow her rules, or live up to the expectations she has set. She’s also rigid, harsh and may lack empathy. Although the daughter may comply in her younger years, she is quietly resentful and will likely rebel – either strongly and loudly, or in a more passive way. She may feel she must be “perfect”, have low self-esteem and fear rejection and judgement by others.
And then I locked myself away, where I could not be found, and now I search, search for myself, behind the tallest of walls and in the darkest of places
I hate that we live in a society that doesn’t reward kindness but encourages competition and self striving….and that by such small gestures of common decency people are amazed, when surely that should be expected/normal for us as humans. We are social animals and yet we have been conditioned into this state of isolation and self interest, when are most natural state is being with and looking out for others..
"It was one of those days when it’s a minute away from snowing. And there’s this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it right? And this bag was just… dancing with me… Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. That’s the day I realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever."